Pain in this Life

Who would have thought,
It has come to this
So many have died
So many are missed
All due to a disease
A mindstate, a misleading way of life
One full of excitement and one full of misplaced pride
And one full of anguish
Sickness and fear
One when to think of
Even makes me tear
One that can scar you
So deeply that it always hurts
Turning your heart cold
Pushing away from the hurt
One that can leave you
Broken and alone
Full of shame and sorrow
Without a home
Just a place to stay
As uncertainty eats away
At a starving mind
Its so strange why we do these things that we do
That hurt us and others
All others around you
Those that care we make worry
Those that we love are left hurt and in fury
All while your in such a place
So unhappy and dark
Like a pit you cannot escape
Your trapped and unguarded
Know not where to go or what is to happen tomorrow
This life always leads to so much tragedy and pain
I wonder
Is it possible
For this life to change?