How it ends and begins.

Ive tried it all,
Ive gone down the list,
Partied hard,
But it ends with a twist,
Not one in a drink,
But one in a cell,
Unable to think ,
Unable to see,
The life that was always cut out for me,
The  one I could have made,
The one I could have had,
The one that when thought of,
Makes me sad,
And maturity comes quick,
Almost like a kick,
One to the face,
Swift, Thick,
But the clock will tic,
The time is not quick,
But the days will pass,
Ever so slow,
And that's how it goes,
Not how it ends,
You pray to god to send,
That angel you had,
Living within,
The good in you,
You wish to be a kid again,
Your innocence is gone,
And its not coming back,
Now its time,
To get back on track.